I became a mom of twins at 43. Identity and time shifts occurred. Bewitched, I became their primary caretaker and was side by side with their nanny during every new experience they encountered until it was just Ellie and Jack and me (my husband is the sole provider). But why? This was not how I thought my feminist brain would take on the role of motherhood.
By nature, I observe what is immediate in my life. Was this the mom gaze, women gaze we speak of with pride? Am I still not sure? As 2020 rolled into what we all know it has been, I wanted to edit the thousands of images, the gaze I had captured of my twins. I searched for meaning besides cute. I fell into questioning the work and my place as an artist.
*To be noted, these images are taken with three formats: analog, mirrorless digital, and iPhone-Hipstamatic’s app, wh